BBGS
..Thursday, October 18, 2001//03:22 a.m...
it has been quite hectic. My boyfriend came back last weekend (finally)and with him around i don't have time for anything else except for him, obviously. He studies in Perak which is like hundreds and hundreds of kilometres away from me. Long distance relationship sux big time!!!
He has gone back there on monday...as always.
i hate mondays. another reason to have the monday blues.....
miss you baby.
My pc has been giving me trouble...i switched from Window ME to Window 98, which is better btw..but i can't find the driver of my modem to d/l on the new window..i still can't find it. i am now using my old cpu to connect to the internet but then i have to switch back to the new cpu for high RAM game (only The 'VERY ADDICTIVE' Sims) playing.then switch again for internet then switch...lalala u get the idea...where is that f*cking driver!!!!??
regarding the title, BBGS. My dearest school.where my heart always belong. i just visited the new site for the school. Not that flashy but still it brings back strong memories. Why? because our school building is no longer there. it has been torn down in the name of progress.i will press this issue later on. not now cause i can't seem to process anymore relevant sentences............i need sleep.
[-Islam is tolerance, peace and love....not terror-]<--another matter i WANT to yap about.
sighhh......[dreamy face]
..Friday, October 12, 2001//04:01 a.m...
"i love youuuuu...you love meeeee ..we are all happy family..with a great big hug and a kiss from me to youuuu...why don't you say you love me toooooo"
the stomach is rambling
..Wednesday, October 10, 2001//02:39 a.m...
i have just added my old entries. you know which one it is by looking at the date. not that tough you know.
the reason why i added my old entries to my spanking brand new site was because i cherish my memories and my thoughts. we can't simply erase the memories that made us what we are today. what i might be thinking 10 years ago might still be the same what i'm thinking now.i want to see the prove of that. by adding my old stuff, it's possible.
you always think that you have changed from the past. let it be physically or mentally. but the past is never far away. it is still there. inside of you. a part of you. always. and i have no excuses for forgetting that.
nway, i want to. easy said.
Beginner's luck
..Tuesday, October 9, 2001//11:01 p.m...
this is the first time i'm learning to build a website from the ground up. so far it has been pretty frustrating and i never seems to be satisfied with what i have done (i think ive forgotten that im a virgin to this DIY website.)
the last time ive tried doing this sh*t journal (diary to you sissies) thing was a year ago and i was using such an original template that was provided by the beautiful ppl of pitas.com. i hope you ppl realised which were the sarcastic words in that last sentence.
thinking back...im lucky im not getting a blank page.
//ain't gonna quit
i just needed to write somethings
..Tuesday, October 9, 2001//05:10 pm..
something something something something something something something something something something something something
something something something something something something
thank you for your cooperation...
i was lost....somewhere
..Friday, December 22, 2000//12:34 a.m...
i think its rather stupid when ppl say they are lost, someone would ask 'lost where?' (a bit of broken english there) or they ask 'where are you?'. for God sake, if i knew where i was i wouldnt say i was lost,now would i?...ermm pure babbling, just something that came into mind.
anyway, i havent written in for a long time cause mainly, i was playing Escape From Monkey Island 4. hahaha...that took most of my time. it's great fun and damn funnee.but since my pc have only like a single number memory, it kinda slow. make that VERY slow! i can go to the toilet, wash my face, brush my teeth n watch a vid on mtv so that it can move 6-10 frames. but then i gave up n i swithced to my brother's pc, wow..i really enjoyed myself playing on a more expensive pc. kinda shows that something is better when its more expensive.
1 more thing : I AM DAMN BORED SINCE I GOT NO NEW GAME TO PLAY!!!....anyone pls..someone suggest some good pc games kinda alike monkey island.
ROOOOOOOOOO N My BABYYYYYY...
..Monday, December 4, 2000//02:26 a.m...
Couldn't feel much better
Than the way I fell tonight
Feel like Icould live forever
Feel like I could fly
When I thought I'd get it wrong, yeah
You somehow make things right
That's the way you make me feel
Better than I've ever known it
Better than it's ever been
I can't seem to control it, no
The way you make me feel
Like the sun coming up in the morning
Like holding the world in your hands
In a way I could never imagine (yeah)
The way you make me feel
I couldn't feel much better
Than when I'm here with you
You make everything seem so easy
I'm telling you the truth
You never try to please me
But somehow...you always do
CHORUS
The way you make me feel, yeah
The way you make me feel
The simple things you do to me
Simple things you say
I sometimes can't believe it's for real
CHORUS
The way you make me feel, yeah
The way you make me feel
The way you make me feel
why am i here again?
..Friday, December 1, 2000//12:31 a.m...
the world is weird. the moment you complain you have no friends that is when everyone comes alongs and say "long time no see" "WAZZAP~!!!" by that time im not in the mood to entertain anyone except myself and my non ending rambling
i havent figured out how to change the format yet..cause everytime i do something else happen and well let just say the result was nothing as i wish it to be. im hopeless with html tags. H-O-P-E-L-E-S-S...ANY CUTE GUYS VOLOUNTEERING???
and yes janey i still blame you for making my ramble here to prove my insanity more.and no i didnt turn out to be a 'babe' as syat told you..oh yeah..syat forgot who i was when i saw her! hmmmm my statement may not prove anything, other than im strange.
i have yet promote my newfound toy to my friends.i think im too ashame for them to find out some of my inner most thoughts...i said SOME not all..im procrastinating it...hehe said that in honour of jen who i think have a fondness for that act.
i hope i will not die of laughing when i read this in a matter of months.will be rather pathetic.but then again...AVE GARDE~!! and i have no idea what i just typed. but im not going to delete that because i made a pact with myself that i wont delete any thoughts that come into my head when i type...i wanted to type something else but i forgot.ETU BRUTUS?..YIN YANG..HOCUS POCUS~!..no not those either..SEIZE THE DAY~!! yeah thats it..CARPE DIEM~!..haha took me some time there...
boredom is a test on your freedom
..Thursday, November 30, 2000//11:52 p.m...
i finally finish all my papers.i cant say how well ( badly) i did because i havent gotten the results yet but when i did my economics paper, wow i never knew i could write that much garbage before.heck, i knew..i write garbage the last time i sat for something just as big..my spm a year ago.
oh well...time to partyyyyy if only theres some ppl to party with.in ramadhan, kinda make you feel guilty since it is supposed to be one of the holy month. and the fact that i have my holidays while everyone of my best frens and frens just finished with them. totally unfair. those frens i made in college..well some still stayed as frens in college, if you know what i mean and the rest..zoom back to their home hundreds of kilometres away or on some stupid holidays.
my frens would probably say its stupid for me to complain because my boyfriend is also having his holiday, but im not those kind of girl who want to spend each waking moment with him anyway.so that doesnt count. sighh...hes also one of those (sweet) guys who wants to take care of his siblings and have some quality time with them during his hols...how am i suppose to complain against that???
the answer is obviously i cant and i have to be content with reading my chicken soup books all over again and watching cable 24/7 and buying illegal (gasp) vcds to entertain my bored mind. JOYYYYYYYYYY to the worldddddd...oh my God i lost my mind...again.
even irc seems boring to me.seems?hah!it is boring....
hei if anyone reading this have any idea how i can entertain myself ( without putting too much effort tq, holidays supposed to be relaxing remember?) tell me..i am available at xdaliv@hotmail.com ...hmmmm maybe i should clean my room for once...ack! im not that desperade to die chocking from mothballs!!!....yet anyway
i am a zombie
..Tuesday, November 28, 2000//12:10 a.m...
my phone is ringing at the most unappropriate time...the time i choose to complain that no one i care is calling me..talk about ironic...
anywayyy...i finished 2 papers out of 3 for the finals~!im coming nearer to my freedom~!!yay..i just had my second paper just now. IT SUCK.it was pathetic ..i bet someone made the time go faster or something..i swear i had 1 more hour to do my paper b4 it was due.i hope my lecturers know how to read mambo jambo handwriting...oh well..whats done is done and i no longer need to study for that darn 2 subject..by wednesday i will be totaaaaaalllyyyy freeeeeee..muahahah..until 8th january thats it.oh well, better than nuthing.
we muslim started our fasting today and on the way to college hitz fm had this chocolate advertisement on air..aaaaaaaaa i was literally drooling and cant wait for breaking fast time....which at that time was about 11 hours away.the things we have to avoid during ramadhan...and thats only food..dont make me talk about avoiding the other temptations..you guys know what some of it is..involves the opposite sex..;)
my ex-crush called me last night..he tried to trick me saying hes from whatever bullshit company but i knew it was him when he first said hello..oh wow.. i never knew the effect of him calling me would have been so wonderful on my bf...his face just change..tip to self: dont talk long with ex crush with bf at the side.
im talking rubbish aint i? nothing new..i do that for a living..hei i can can i?maybe...u can never know.
i cant sleep..i watched a movie with bill pullman in it just know regarding zombie..kinda creepy..heck.VERY creepy..i know i know its just a movie but movies are based on realities...some movies anyway..hmm i better use my waking moment in good use..like studying for my last paper~!!!
yes jenn..proscastinating and being silly is fun..hehe so maybe i wont be studying at all..i rather be studying the person at the other end of the phone line..:)
adios amigos..ttfn